I never thought I’d find someone who would make me feel so at peace, yet so in turmoil at the same time.
Your eyes don’t lie and our love is real, I just can’t deny how in love I feel,
For the first time ever.
He treats me like a goddess, makes me feel so loved, safe, confident and stable; so much,
That it scares me what might happen if
He just decides to leave.
And I wouldn’t be able to cope.
Its so hard for me to trust people, but I decided to give it a try for once. It feels beautiful to just let go.
The other night he told me to look him in the eyes in moments of passion, which I had avoided for months.
But for the first time ever, I did.
And it made me think just how vulnerable I am.
People can be nice, but people change.
Last time I looked into someones eyes like that,
They destroyed me.
They hurt me mentally and physically,
And I still have nightmares about them.
But of course he doesn’t know that.
He just wants me to be sincere and hold eye contact in the heat of the moment.
But it honestly makes me panic.
But just maybe, he will be different,
Still something in my heart keeps telling me,
That in the end, he won’t.