blood, imagery, love, lust, poem, poems, poetry

What Am I To You?

What am I to you?

I want to know.

Paint a picture with my blood, in freshly fallen snow.

What do you feel, when you see me smile?

Oh I so wonder, if to you, I was ever worth while.

Go on, this vibrant ink will soon run out!

At least this way, Ill know what you’re all about. 

And Im expecting a picture I wouldn’t want to see,

Which is you, in a world, separated from me.

And in that case my used up ink will be worth while,

My life will drown away, and so will my smile.

Oh how much I loved you, you’ll never know.

But I guess, you gotta learn to let these things go.

I know I was only an object to fulfil your lust,

So there is nothing else to be discussed.

Just leave me behind, let my blood sicker into the cold,

Its time for my coldest darkest corners to finally unfold. 

And now Im back to being, my cold hearted, old self.

Now its all regrets, I should’ve never left this shelf.

I should’ve just stayed in the dark,

And should’ve never allowed my real self to embark.

But its too late.

And time to serve my rightful fate.

To be alone and cold,

Never to smile, whilst being surrounded by gold.

But every now and then,

When my ice cold reality comes crashing in,

I ask myself,

What am I to you?

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love, lust, lust and love, poem, poems, poetry, thoughts, wish

I wish…

I wish

You’d be mine.

And every night when I sleep so tight,

I dream of your lips so divine. 

I long for your pitch black eyes,

And like to pretend, in them, my future lies.

It all started off as a game,

And I used to think, that these games, would always go the same.

But with you, the predictable ending, never came.

And now I lie here, my heart is bleeding, why?

Because I feel, you’ll never want me to be a star in your little sky.

And I hope, that at least, I’m a shooting star.

A bright one, in the far. 

I wish

You’d long to hold me tight.

You’d long for me, to be your guiding light.

But Im not. 

Im not.

Im waiting for a sign,

But not sure if you’ve already drawn the line

Between love and lust.

Im stuck on one side,

And if I said, I didn’t want both, I would’ve lied.

I wish

We could be more.

More than the small waves that wash up seashells by the shore.

I want you to be my sea,

All I want is for you to stay with me. 

And laugh, and dance, and share everything about ourselves without a care.

But that won’t happen.

And as the dark night rises,

I hope, so will opportunity and surprises.

I hope Ill be a star in your sky,

And I hope one day, next to you Ill lie.

And it won’t be a far fetched dream.

I wish,

You’d be mine.

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