Theres something about you,
Thats melting my icy barrier.
Im still confused and scared,
Still self conscious, unprepared.
Something about my inner voice keeps telling me,
That you will end up hurting me,
Like all the others before.
That I’ll end up being nothing, but a chore.
But when you told me you loved my quirky personality,
My bad puns, the absence of normality,
How you loved every part of my body that I used to hate,
I couldn’t help but think, that this might be fate.
But I’m still afraid.
I want to try and love fully for once,
Without the voices in my head telling me all the bad that could happen.
I want to be myself, pretending has become such a chore,
I just want you to want me for who I am, not more.
I don’t want you to only use me, like most before,
And then throw me away into the corner.
But theres this little spark in your eye, giving me hope,
That you probably won’t.
Just promise me, that you won’t break my little heart,
It can’t take a lot of loss and pain.
Ive been there before, it made me become an emotional drain.
No love to give, no happiness to share,
Only to be by myself, too afraid to love, handling life without a care.
Is what Im afraid of.
I don’t like myself when Im in this state,
Of cold heartedness, pain and hate.
I’d much rather be free,
To be just me.
And I’ll try with you, it seems like you might be the one,
The one who will guide me through day and night, be my moon, my sun.
Just promise not to break my heart,
And I’ll be everything you ever wanted, your personal little piece of art.
If you let me just be me, and love me for that,
I’ll show you the most beautiful places of my soul.
And there’s something about you,
That gives me the glimpse of hope,
That you’ll let me.